Monday, September 8, 2008

How, What ,Where and Why?

14 years ago I was hopeful and happy. Today I am scared and broken hearted. My daughter has always attended private school and has done extremely well. Above average most would say. In the summer before 7th grade a huge change started to take place. My daughter developed a smart mouth and attitude and became depressed. Everything that use to interest her she put on the back shelf. My daughter started to become a chameleon, changing her personality to whoever she was around. My thoughts at first was she is trying to find herself. Now I am not sure of anything.

Basically she is a great kid who seems confused. Friendships that are lasting and true come hard for her. I believe she looks in the wrong places. My daughter is forever trying to find herself a best friend. I usually have few problems with her except for her mouthing off and being disrespectful. Boy, the weeks before Christmas sure changed that. I received a call from the school stating that my daughter has been cutting herself. Nothing really serious but this is how it all begins. I talk to the school and we exchange what little information I could share. I have noticed that she has become more and more depressed. I take my daughter to see a therapist and he puts her on medication for depression and we start doing some test. The test reveal she has OCD , ADD, ADHD, ODD and lord knows what else. Treatment begins right away. Months and months into treatment I see good days and bad. We switch medicines and full around with the dosing. Still no change.

Eight grade comes and we go from bad to worse. Grades slide down attitude is given to the teachers. I am pulling my hair out by now. We discipline, we seek help and we work close with the school. The counselor at school tells me she thinks my daughter is just immature and is trying to find her way. I roll with whatever the school wants me to do and also the therapist. I still see good days and bad. It seems like all she cares about is having a social life.

Just to let you know she never did cut herself again after the first incident. I am not sure if she was trying to get attention or what.

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